I love first kisses, don't you? The power, the excitement, the overwhelming newness of the experience. I also think one of the sexiest attributes a hero can have--better than bedroom eyes or washboard abs--is iron-clad self control. There's no better test of the strength of a man's character than his willingness to deny himself for the sake of someone he cares about.
In the excerpt below, from my western historical, Harvest of Dreams, lawman Jared and young widow Lisa share their first kiss after staying up all night to care for her sick baby:
She heard
the bed ropes creak and sensed Jared’s presence behind her, but she didn’t
turn. His arms came around her from behind and crossed loosely against her
ribs, cradling her in an undemanding embrace. She went still for a moment, then
relaxed against him, and his arms tightened to hold her there.
“He’s
better,” he said in a low voice over the top of her head.
“Yes.”
She turned in his arms and leaned back to look up into his face. “He’s better,
because of you. Thank you.”
“You
don’t have to thank me.” He stroked her cheek with rough fingers, continuing to
hold her close with the other hand. “I care about him, too.”
“I know.”
For a
long moment, they gazed into each other’s eyes.
“Lisa.”
The word was so low and deep it sounded more like a rumble in his chest than
her name. “There’s something I want, badly.”
Her eyes
asked the question, but she already sensed the answer.
“I want
to kiss you. I’ve wanted to all day...for weeks really. Please don’t pull
away.”
The plea
in his voice tore at her. That a man like Jared, who could take whatever he
wanted, was asking for permission touched her. He was giving her the power to
grant or refuse. He would never force her. But she couldn’t deny his need. It
mirrored
her own. She couldn’t help herself;
she nodded without looking away.
Fierce
satisfaction swept across his face before he lowered his mouth to hers. His
lips were firm and deliberate as he worked to coax a response from her.
Lisa
moved her mouth, but she wasn’t sure exactly what she was supposed to do.
Before he’d left for war, Dan’s kisses had been the tentative caresses of
a teenage boy. This was completely
different. Jared was a man, and beyond her experience.
“Open for
me. Please.” He nudged at her lips to show her what he wanted.
She was
dizzy with the new sensations and did what he asked without hesitation.
Immediately, his grip tightened and one hand slid up her back and buried itself
in her unbound hair. He used that hand to hold her head steady as he slid his
tongue into her
mouth.
The
action shocked her, and she started to draw back, but his hand tightened.
“No,” he
murmured raggedly.
She was
overcome by a longing to give this man what he needed. She stopped struggling
and forced herself to relax in his embrace. Soon the novelty of the kiss wore
off, and a fire began to burn deep inside her. She discovered her arms had
wound
themselves around his broad, bare
back and her hands were every bit as busy as his. Her tongue refused to remain
passive and wove itself around his in an ancient mating dance.
Jared
made a low noise deep in his throat and slid his right hand slowly down her
back. Then, as if he could stand it no longer, he pulled her hard against him.
A breathless excitement gripped her. The sensations were so thrilling and so
new she lost herself in the pleasure of it. Finally, he dragged his mouth away.
She collapsed
against his chest, and they stood,
holding each other until their heartbeats slowed and their breathing returned
to normal.
Jared was
the first to speak. “I’m not sorry.”
She
remained silent.
“This
doesn’t change anything,” he said.
Lisa
pulled back and looked up, shaking her head. “It changes everything.”
“No, it
doesn’t. The feelings were there before, and they’ll still be there whether we
act on them or not.”
She
didn’t try to deny it. “But we can’t, and it will be so much harder now.”
“That’s
true. Now you know how much I want you, and I know you want me, too. I don’t
know where this is going, but we have to find out.”
“I don’t
want to find out.” But a small voice inside denied the words. Part of her had
to know.
“I think
you do, and I know I do. I’m not going to offer to leave, even though it might
make some things easier, not unless you can convince me you really want me to
go.” He cupped her face in both hands and searched her eyes. “Do you?”
Lisa knew
she should say yes and remove the unbearable temptation of his presence, but
she couldn’t bring herself to speak the lie. She shook her
head. “No.”
Jared’s
lips moved in a tiny smile, then his serious expression returned. “I can’t tell
you I’ll never kiss you again, or touch you, or that I won’t want to get even
closer to you, but I promise I won’t press you for anything you don’t want to
give. I’d never do anything to hurt you. You know that, don’t you?”
She
nodded.
“Good.
Now it’s time for you to get some sleep.”
He led
her to the bed and tucked her in, his hands lingering as he smoothed the quilt
across her. Then he leaned over her, his expression rigid and deadly serious.
“I want you to know leaving you tonight is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to
do. But I want
more from you than one night in your
bed.”
He closed
the remaining gap between them and captured Lisa’s lips in a kiss filled with
frustrated desire and a promise of things to come.
Then
he was gone.
What do you think? Romantic, huh?
Alison
www.alisonhenderson.com
9 comments:
Alison,
Romantic? Yes. Very well done. I liked seeing this from her point of view. Very powerful.
Thanks, Margo. Harvest of Dreams was my first book, and these two characters are very close to my heart.
A truly touching scene. I read this so long ago I forgot how great it was! LOL Thanks for sharing.
Jannine,
Glad you enjoyed it. I enjoyed revisiting it, too!
It's both tender and romantic. Excellent.
Love this line:
His arms came around her from behind and crossed loosely against her ribs, cradling her in an undemanding embrace.
Sometimes those opportunities to just BE STILL together are just as romantic for me as the hot passion scenes. Well done.
Robena,
Thank you. I love that line, too. I wanted to capture their exhaustion after being up all night with the sick baby, yet their growing awareness of each other.
Thank you, Barbara. Those quiet moments add a touch of realism to the romance. As you said, love is more than nonstop hot passion.
What a beautiful scene! Thank you for sharing, Alison!
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