From the Davis Household...#Ageing, #Walmart, and #Ambien

This post has nothing to do with writing, except to say I've only written a scene or two this past week.  If I sound down, it's because I'm tired and ill-prepared for the changes I'm seeing in Calvin.

I turn 70 next month. Wait. Let me figure that again. Seventy can't be right. Shoot, it is. Hold on while I grab a tissue. I feel a sniffle coming on. Calvin turns 87 in October. There are sixteen plus years between us.

He had another echo-cardiogram to see if the medicines the Cardiologist has him on have improved his heart function. No change, unfortunately. His heart is still working at 20% capacity. He's moving slower and using a walker.

Last Wednesday, we went out for lunch and stopped at Walmart on the way home. Calvin parked in one of the handicapped spaces while I hurried in for raspberries, blueberries, and melons. When I came out, he turned on the car. I could hear the engine rev harder and asked him to check the position of his foot. Was it partially on the accelerator? His hearing is bad so he couldn't hear the engine roar.

He told me I was wrong and shoved the gear into Reverse. We flew backward toward the front of the store. Thank God no one was behind us! I kept screaming, "Stop!" He yelled, "Why won't the brake work?" Well, his foot had slipped. We crashed into and flattened one of the four-foot high posts in front of the store.

Calvin got out of the car and fell. I heard a remark about a drunk driver. I crawled out to explain what had happened. An ambulance and the police were called. The EMT's checked him out and said he was fine. The policeman spoke with me and said he wasn't charging Calvin with anything. "Accidents like this happen," he said. "Your husband has a clean driving record."

Our Camry was towed away and we got home by way of taxi.

That's when I noticed my head and shoulder hurt. I'd been so worried over Calvin I didn't think to take inventory of my own body. But, I'm fine now--almost.

Two days later, Calvin had his regular three-month appointment with our primary care giver. He sees six different doctors. He told our regular doctor about the accident. I told him about Calvin's falling and my difficulty in getting him back on his feet; it's as if his legs won't work. And he gets confused. "What room am I in?" ... "How do I roll over. I don't know how."

Our doctor made arrangements for home health care three days a week, physical therapy, and a wheel chair. Calvin told him he hasn't been able to sleep since the accident, so he gave him six Ambien sleeping pills.

Calvin on Ambien: "My feet fell out of bed."
Me: Gets up and places his feet back in bed under the covers.
Cal: "How did that dog get in our room?"
Me: "Honey, we don't have a dog."
Cal: Raises up on elbow. "Get out of my house. Oh, hell, it's a bull. You grew up on a farm, You deal with him." Lays down and goes back to sleep. SUDDENLY! His hand slaps my forehead. "Duck! The birds are coming!"
Me: Mumbles to hubs to calm down.
Cal: "Dorothy, get me some yogurt."
Me: I refuse to answer to his ex-wife's name. I've been his wife for nearly 14 years.
Cal: "You've got the blankets on the bed wrong."
Me: "Tell Dorothy to change them."
Cal: Would you like to go back to Paris? I want to see Paris one more time before they put me in a box."

It was confusion and tossing and jerking on blankets all night long. I'm hiding his remaining 3 Ambians. I need some sleep. He can't dress himself anymore. He only half eats. And he wants me where he can see me. He wasn't like this before the sleeping pills.

If it ain't broke...~ by Leah St. James

I miss my car. It’s a 2007 Hyundai  Sonata, all black. I’ve never assigned it a name or gender, but in my heart it’s a “she,” despite the fact that when we brought it home, hubby wanted to paint a big “3” on the side as tribute to NASCAR’s Dale Earnhardt. I prevailed on that one, luckily. (Not that I don’t want to honor the man, I just don’t want his number, or any number, on the side of my car.)

Anyway, we’ve been through a lot together – trips to Pennsylvania to care for my ill father-in-law, trips to D.C. to visit Son #1 in college, couple trips to Florida to visit my sister, and many, many drives all over Virginia for book signings and author panels.

We’ve been apart for exactly 14 days today, ever since a woman, who has “no idea how,” plowed into the rear of my Sonata while my son was driving me to work that morning.

The good news – we all walked away from it. The bad news – lots of serious damage to both cars. Her car went under the back of mine and shoved us about eight feet forward. (When I got out to look for damage, I found her license plate embedded in the underside of my bumper. And check out those skid marks...showing where we were pushed!) 

Luckily the insurance company has decided my car is worth repairing, so our separation isn’t endless. I should have it back by the end of the month. (Is it blasphemous to say “Hallelujah” over a car?)

In the meantime, I’m blessed again that my insurance will cover the cost of a rental. It’s a late model Chrysler 200, and I’ve been driving it for two weeks now. I don’t want to sway anyone considering buying this car – because everyone has his/her own preferences – but I HATE this car.

For one thing, the instrument panel is all wrong. The first time I tried to put the car in drive, my hand automatically went to the spot where the joystick-type gear-shift thingy is on my car...where it would be on most cars that are driven by actual people. When my hand hit dead air space, it repositioned itself to the right of the steering column. (Those of you of a certain generation might remember shifting gears that way.) I pulled and pushed but no shifting.

Son #2:  “Mom, what are you doing? That’s for the windshield wipers!”

Me: “D’oh! I know that. But where the heck (substitute for actual H-word I used) is the gear shift?”

It took us a moment, but we finally found it, sitting in the center of the console between the two front seats. It’s a knob.  A KNOB! Round, about two and a half inches across. I HATE it. I’m terrified I’ll accidentally hit it or something while I’m driving. 

Right next to it is this lever about the size of a half dollar. I didn’t know what it was until I pulled it a few times and discovered I’d engaged the parking brake. Thankfully I was sitting at a red light, but for a minute I couldn’t UNdo it and imagined myself sitting there blocking traffic until a cop (or someone else with more brainpower than I have) could come along and figure it out. (I suppose everyone else would have figured out what the “P” in a circle was for...but not me!)

Then there’s the starter. It’s keyless, just a push button. After you unlock the car with your electronic “fob,” sit and buckle your seatbelt, you put your keys in your purse (or whatever), dial the car into gear, and drive off.  Cool, right? I thought so, until I discovered that the car lock won’t really engage while I’m standing there with my purse holding the electronic fob thing. Seriously. I press the lock, the car beeps. I pull on the handle to test once, twice, and on that second attempt the door opens, as if I’d never locked it.

It took me about five minutes of panic—realizing that anyone could walk up to that car, open the door and drive off, NO KEY NEEDED!—before hubby and I discovered that if I walked away (with my purse holding the electronic fob thing), the car would lock for real.

Of course I’m neurotic, so I’m never quite confident that the car is secure. I beep the lock. Then again. Sometimes a third time before I force myself to walk away and leave it to the mercies of whatever electronics gods put the thing together.

All I can think is why? Why make all these gadgetry changes? Am I just old and cranky...stressed out from having my car towed away and having to learn these news features, cold turkey? Sigh.

I miss my car, with my old-fashioned joystick gear-shifter, keyed lock, levered parking brake and door that locks for real no matter where I’m standing. When I get her back, I might even give her a name. 

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Leah writes stories of mystery and romance, good and evil and the redeeming power of love. Visit her at LeahStJames.com